As a midwife, I struggled to let go during the birth of our first child. I was mentally present for the whole 60hours of our induced labour. I made clinical decisions and was constantly monitoring the wellbeing of our unborn child. As a consequence I felt like I was at work and my husband felt alienated. When we found out we were pregnant again (with twins!) I knew I needed to attend my labour/delivery as a mother, not as a midwife, so we decided to attend hypnobirthing with

So here we go! Last week I had a scan where it showed baby had gone up the centile charts and they recommended induction within the next week. I went for an attempted sweep the next day and midwife said although cervix was softening, top was still closed and firm and she couldn't continue, so we made a plan for me to go see her at 40w (Monday) for another sweep attempt and then induction plan. Sunday - got a few mild cramps watching TV and then when hanging some laundry my wa